Letting Go

"The Hardest Damn Thing in the world is to let go", my old friend David tells me.

I just cancelled all the performances I'd scheduled for the spring of 2010. I don't think I will have the energy to work full-time, rehearse a show, and expend any self care. Damn. Damn. Damn. Lance Armstrong rode marathons and Lynn Redgrave performed on Broadway while going through chemo. I am struggling to not judge myself for my reality.

I'll miss Emma Darwin and Rumi this spring. They are good people to spend time with.